2021 ended with me catching covid couple days before Christmas, in fact on 25th I woke up with a lot of throat pain and realized the over the counter medications I have been taking were not helping whatever I had as it was getting worst! Thank heaven's to the one Urgent Care unit and Wallgreens store that was open in town! The doctor tested me for strep throat, flue and covid and covid test came positive at 9am in the morning she told me I was her 5th covid positive patient that day!
Through out the experience of feeling left out during the holidays, not seeing family and stuck in the bedroom in pain I had many difficult moments and couple panic attach episodes. Looking back and re-evaluating the situation I can definitely feel for myself as this is the 2nd year that Covid has rubbed us against having a normal holiday. Last year I suffered from a month long of back injury caused right after Christmas while I was shooting an elopement wedding and this year I was yet sick again in the bed with the famous covid!
I find repetition of events in my life as a pattern, as it usually is a sign of an assignment or lesson and this situation brought to light what I need to work on with is my anxiety over unpredictable and uncertain future. This morning I was listening to a podcast with life coach Cherie Healey and she had a fun little exercise to help set realistic goals for the new year. She said to imagine if you were to leave the earth this year what would you wish for your loved ones: I would wish them to have courage to push for their dreams and to believe in themselves no matter how bad is the situation that they have what it takes to come on the other side. I wish for them to find happiness and joy despite all the odds I wish them build meaningful relationships with likeminded people that lift them up. As Cherie was saying these are my values that I am to live on earth and what I am to experience and work towards this year! Looking back at my pattern for holidays the past couple years, the history shows what my values are and what I'm being tested against. Wish you all a very happy new year!